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Its been quite some time since i updated my blog.. Hmm… last year i had minimal workload… This year i got full workload… 10 classes of PE, and 3 classes of maths, plus being badminton’s teacher-in-charge, and also Maths remedial teacher for 4N3… Hmm… Plus all my tuition assignments…. Smartkidz on Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays, plus Mendaki on Saturdays, and Farhan on Sundays….

Fwah!!!! I’m almost out of breath…

Well, strangely I am more concerned of being a health freak… I watch what i eat, make sure I do my cardio(thats why I like to bring my PE classes for long runs… ), and i also do the weights religiously… HEALTH FREAK!!!!

I have 2 more months to define my abs… which  are freakingly difficult to shape.  I have 5 abs now… the last one does not want to appear… And all look very faint to me…

I am beginning to emnjoy badminton a lot nowadays… running too… Well, SPORTS FOR LIFE!!!!

I have found a new sporting interest… Yes… those who know me may ask… AGAIN??? Well, this time I fell into it through chance… To be a PE teacher, I have to undergo Physical Proficiency Test…. Few elements of the test… agility run (haha… consider settled…), swimming test( lagi kacang…), game sense test ( looks like captain’s ball… well… shd not be a problem with continued training…), gymnastics( been training for it and shd pass it….) and badminton. Hmm… Badminton… this is a game that I have never liked… Well… Since its my choice of a career, what the heck… lets learn this game…

Went out of my way to get someone to teach me… My dad? Well… he’s finding hard to find time… let alone energy… My frens?? My RXT frens are more into pool and bowling… The rest are into rugby or soccer… Or clubbing… Wait a minute… thats not a sport…

Thought about it… And approached Rohaizam, since he had already passed the test… He agreed, but it was difficult to find time… Then I saw my chance… In YISS, I picked up the rackets… had a test run with a few students… Dey, this game is quite fun lah… Got Wiyah to play with me… Hmm… this is quite fun… Even had my long time buddy-cum-relative Lee Boy into the act. Then had a chance to play wth Zam himself… If only I could play like him, this game would be oh so fun… Now, I find myself always thinking of booking the courts of the hall at CDANs…

Hmm… my students are facing their N level Maths tomorrow.. really wish them all the best… they would need it… I hope that Taufik and Ibrahim would prove to me that their effort would not be wasted… These are good guys, with real interest in doing well for the paper… If only I have got to know them sooner, man I would have coached them to an A….

Missing my fiancee at the moment… My school starts at 7.20… Hers starts at 8… Nochance for me to send her to work… and smell her morning smell.. usually a tinge of perfume and pure fresh-from-the-shower-smell that only women have…

After school, she has her activities… I have taufik and Ibrahim… Well, N levels are over next week… Hope to get more quality time… Not only during badminton and after tuitions… Well, what am I fretting about… the holidays are coming real soon… Signing off.. need to sleep now.

Followed my darling to KFC just now to break fast…  Hmm… Tasted the chicken… it feels strange… so nice and juicy… but the effects were bird-like, fast in, fast out…

Gym today was so rushed, but it was quite hectic and almost too tiring… Is the fasting making me weaker?? Haizz…. 3 meals a day is hurting me… 6 meals a day was very good… Had tons of energy…

Meeting Zam was good too…talked about current affairs… He’s my senior in this PE line… Helped me get a PESS shirt… damn, the shirt made me look good.

Banafe(johor) to meet the McDegils after that… Mizi was there as well… Its good that finally we are all friends… Saw Herman (Canon) too… Hmm… so tired now… tomorrow 7.20 my day starts again…

yesterday after completing my first blog entry, i rushed down to japanese garden’s fisherman village…. my cousins were there for some family bonding time…

I hate fishing… find it a stupid sport… but, with cousins, the time spent catching up on each others’ lives and all that…. fishing suddenly became doable… Aishah’s prowess at the sport was the biggest cool factor…. An avid fishergal, she was very skilled at handling the rods… and upon casting her first line, it took less than a minute for the first bite of a pretty big fish…. All this when some ah peks, looking as if this is their one and only passion, were already there sitting down and not getting any bite whatsoever… A total of 2 fishes were caught by Aishsah… she deserves to live in Punggol…

Well, discussed the possibility of Fraser to them… hopefully it would be a family gathering of sorts…. till next time…

Its been 3 weeks since I am in school….. actually I have been in school all my life…. well… this time I am not in school to study…. but instead to teach…

Most of my life, i have been a beginner-level hooligan… doing things to my own whim and fancy…. not caring so much about outcome… happy in being robust… anything i dont like i can just execute my own judgement and punishment about it…. well, how things change…

The turning point proved to be my stint in Tanglin… Countless times I have fought… was even becoming pretty good at it… marks and scars on my body are some memories… i even developed an "afraid-of-no-one" hooligan-like attitude towards things… But, this time I am innocent… tried to help the police even… how things go horribly wrong… Being charged initially with "rioting with deadly weapon", and also the "5 year 6 stroke" sentence hanging in front of my eyes at court 26…. at the age of 25… means I will be out of prison when I turn 30…. bila nak kahwin gitu??? court 26… I could never forget even if i want to…. how I see my parents cry when they visited me… well, who can forget that.. Am i not the apple of the family? The one who was destined to bring glory to the family? All my sports achievements and academic success pointing to this? PRISON?? HELL NO!!!!!!

Well, when I got out of that situation… I realised… my ambition to be a senior officer of the police force… hmm… I don’t want to be associated with them… neantherals who are lazy to investigate… treat me like shit… wasn’t I there to help them? And they still charge me for it?

I did some soul searching during the 8 days of isolation in the lock-up…. what do i enjoy doing most? what do i really want in life? To be an engineer? not in a million years… to be a despatch rider?? did that… not enuff pay… canon gig was good… but… i am turning dark from it… and its not I want in life. ( shall just keep it at that.)

What I enjoyed most was sports… always made me happy and committed… and also the joys of my tuition students’ faces when they did well in the exams….

After a few searches… and inquisitions… i applied to be a PE teacher… and Maths also for good measure… All this even though I have friends who are waiting to get out of the profession…. Maybe this time I can try to help other races as well in MAths… But, top focus… I want Malays to stop the rot… stop telling themselves that Malays are lousy in MAths….

Here I am now… in a school in Bukit Batok… Conducting PE was ok… Well, the 2 and a half ears as Physical, Field and Range instructor during national service has served its purpose…. PE is nothing new to me… good so I can be the healthy person that I truly am… not the MAc despatch boy that I was, eating MAc food 3 times per day… gaining tons of fats on my body… My aim… 12% body fat by end of year… while maintaining my weight to be 85kg, nothing lower… that would be damn good…

Maths was ok too… nothing new to me…. what is new is that these students are 16 and 17 year olds… the age when I myself was a misfit trying to fit into society… hating class… hating exams… hating teachers…  I remember that at this age, I wished that the school would suddenly burn down and we could all go home… Now, I see myself in these students… Serves me right… What goes around, comes around…..

My maths class 4NC…. hmm…. morale of the class was at all time low… when I marked the papers…. I realised the task that I have in hand… these guys don’t know… and don’t care… I must make them care…

after 3 weeks… how people don’t realise the joy that i get when I see that these guys and girls actually care… Approaching me for personal coaching in MAths… made me happy like hell… I don’t know why… the sensation is the same as u playing a part in a winning team of a rugby  match…. so enjoyable…

maybe too early to say this, as i have almost minimal workload now… but if this is what teaching is about… let me sign on for eternity…